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Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009
1:22 pm	Being Mr. Mom Somedays I feel like I am Mr. Mom. Though I don't have kids of my own. I watch and take care of my brother's. While I also clean and sometimes cook for them. Lately I have been in a huge cleaning mood. Cleaned out the camper so I have a sudo bed to sleep on and not just the couch. I clean up the living room and do dishes almost every day. I have been also cleaning out one of the other rooms that my other brother just vacated out of. Also today I cleaned up the bathroom sink and toilet. Going to work on getting the filth out of the shower tiles later. Yay for Mr. Clean and a high powered shower head. On another note. Been talking with my Brother's other babies momma. I have another niece I seem to always forget about cus i have never met her. Been talking with ways that we can set up and see her. She lives down by Oregon and shes afraid my brother will take her away. She put the baby up for adoption and she seems to be in a really good home and I think it was for the best. She was 16 when she had her. My brother wasn't the best person in the world back then, still isn't really. But I do want to atleast visit her and talk with her at some point. She is my blood after all. Another note. My uncle only has about 3 months to live. He is dying from hepititus (dont know what one.) My dad also has hepititus so I dont know how far off he will be. He has had a couple of heart attacks in the past year. But hes a tough guy. and stubbern. Don't hink he will kick it any time soon. Been excited about Renfaire and Spocon. Hopefully i can save up enough money to actually get some stuff. Been trying my hardest to not spend any money. Also if you know anyone who need some work done. Like yard work or something. I am willing to do it for some money. Well I guess thats all for now. I know not many people are actually on my live journal. So what ever. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 17th, 2009
8:30 pm	omg update OK so someone was making fun of me for not updating. So here y'all go. I'm doing sorta OK. Lately been having big fits of muscle spasms. Coming to think of it I have had minor muscle twitches for a long time now. leading me to believe I have a minor turrets syndrome. But nothing to major. I have been really lonely lately, but will be OK. Feeling I am becoming more paranoid. Not really believing in what people tell me. But I go along with it just to keep people happy. Hating people more and more over time. seeing couples together make me a bit more jealous, but I manage to deal with it all. No job since atomic ale. I miss it lots right now. Can't seem to get someone to higher me. When I do get a call back it seems like I end up playing phone tag with them then a message gets lost someone and I end up not getting it. My friend Bri is rubbing off on me for better and worse :-p though I like it. I am becoming less shy and more open around people. she also introduced me to a really cute girl. I do want to get to know her and all that. she has kids. I like kids a lot been taking care of them since I was 8. I like being around them and playing. Reminds me of what I missed as a child and get to have it for a little while. Just don't know how I can build a friendship more and more with people. I have trouble finding things to talk about. Anything will do. I like letting other people pick what to talk about. that way I don't end up offending them or picking topics that bore the hell out of them. I am thinking about going to college but I don't know what I would do. might do business or some sort of psychology or criminology . I would really love to know more about the justice system and be some sort of law enforcement like lawyer or something but I don't have the smarts and know it and don't want to waste peoples time. I don't think there is really anything else to say. Oh my grandpa has died. My dad and uncle have both been in the hospital a lot the past year. So I have been dealing with some death issues lately here. My crazy dad who walked to the hospital, while having a heart attack, instead of asking my brother for a ride. Because he didn't want to keep him from work. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
9:20 am	1/2 holmeless Well probably come friday ill be 1/2 homeless. I'll probably live outta my car. And shower at friends or moms. Somewhere I'll find somewhere to shower at-least every other day and important days like dates and stuff (ya right me having a date.) But yea I'm sick of my roommates constant drug use and messiness. The last time any part of the house was picked up was on my Birthday by me by myself. My birthday was may 28th and within 2 days it was messy again. I'm just getting sick of paying most of the bills and other things then cleaning up after them after coming home from work. :S So yea I'm going to live outta my car for a couple of reasons. I want know what its like to be homeless at least half way homeless. And the other is because I don't really want to depend to much on other people. I'm also waiting for my friend to come back and I'll get a place with him if the offer still stands. Found out I couldn't get a laptop by financing the damn thing. I'll talk someone into like getting one for me and I'll pay them monthly or the bill on the damn thing. Because my credit is so horrible. :( Well I'm off to find something to do or what not. Current Mood: crappy Current Music: Korn - comming undone (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
4:33 am	Death Well my grandpa is in the hospital and not doing so good. So if i seem a bit emotional its from that. Im sorry. Hes slowly fadding and hes like one of the people in my life im close to. Not many in my family that i am and i actualy care about and make fun of. He was a great man and still is. might have been a grouch at times but still a nice man. He fought in WW2 and was a fireman. and done a lot of things for the country that i dont really care about but thats another story. Well i hope he pulls through but my grandma thinks he wont, she was a nurse but is also senile and takes things worse then they can be. So bare with me in my troubled times. I have known 2 people that have died in my life and was hurtful to me so just keep up with me while i slow down a bit and enjoy life while i still got it. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
11:18 am	WTF Who else things todays society is going to hell? I do. Just look at what we have. We have 12 year olds having sex and getting pregnate and no one gives a damn any more. We have constant rapists and murders running around and they get like what 10 years or so in a place where they can have a warm bed and more luxureies(spelling i cant spell) then even i have. and im not sentanced to like death in a couple of months. We are spending to much money on the prisions for them to be "Comffy" when they did something so horrable as taking another persons life. We are at war with iraq for what now? We are still looking for someone. What they hell? Or is it we are going to help them and make them better??? WTF they dont want to be better. If they did they wouldnt be FIGHTING BACK. now would they. God damn it. Im going to like buy and island and live there away from socitey for ever from now on. I mean really. We have underage people getting drunk and no one giving a fuck about it. Actualy people are suplying the kids with acholhal and drugs. I mean really. What the hell is wrong with us now. We hate people cus of how they want to live. Oh noes. We hate gays cus they are attracticted to the same sex cus thats what they enjoy or like. I mean really. And you know what. Its only guys hating gay guys. They dont have a problem with lezbians. Really Why would a guy not have a problem with them. Oh they like other girls and its "hott" for them to make out. News flash guys YOU AINT GETTING in there. Holly cow you arnt getting any from them so why in the hell would you enjoy that. I would enjoy something where i actuly got some. Theres no point in liking something if you aint getting any. Ok back to the war. Yea i know its dumb but oh well. Why in the hell does the USA want to help a forien country. Oh its for the oil. Well We can make our own. But you know what. We dont want to. We have tons of oil in alaska. But you know what we dont want to get any. cus it will kill seals and other sea creatures. but we dont have a problem killing other people in another country or our own people. So we are waring wiht iraq to get oil we can easly make on our own. but we dont want to cus we might kill something that there are tons of and serve no purpose? Holy cow. We are fucked up now these days. You want to know why the colonists revolted from the british. We didnt want to be dependent on them or other countrys. Well where in the FUCK are we now. Dependent on other countrys. Since everything we make is defective or fucked up some how. Like take japan for instance. We use them for technology reasons. If we didnt we would probly still be in model-t cars or riding horses still. And computers. We would still have like two block huge (like xbox) computers that only function is a calculator. we depend on the middle east for oil?? yet we can make our own. We depend on most of europe for food but we can grow and make our own. but we would rather build citys to expand our growth and that leaves us less room for gardens and farms. we depend on the chinesse for liek wheat and other bread making substances and vegtables. Cant we for once be independent. Ok onto something else. Poverty. We have so many dman fucking poor people. I know i am one. i have lived in poor places all my life. I mean im lucky to actuly have like access to computer (am still using a free one mind you) im working myself out of the hole my parents put me in. I have had no job till now. I dont really even have a highschool education since my parent didnt motavate me enough to go to school. and she would rather like fuck with my mind by putting me on drugs then worry about me. I would have wanted a parent that actuly worryed about me grounded me. took things away and actualy had money. Insted i got one that didnt give a fuck about her kids yet had 5. Cared more about her animals then her kids and spent more money on them then her kids in a year. She spent more money on Animals then 5 kids in a year. I mean really how do you manage to do that? I know most of you are going like WTF what are you talking about. Well i barly know. Its just whats been on my mind. We have tons of crap thats bugging the hell outa me. Ok the Age of concent is bothering me too. I know we have it there for a reason. People with the mentality like me who like young girls for some strange reason. (i dont know why i do so dont bother trying to figure it out) but what the hell. Its ok for a 36 year old to date and 18 year just cus oh look they are 18 now they are adults. News flash 18 you are still young. Im still young im still learning. I mean really people dont really grow up till they are 25 or so. Some sooner then others. Some later then others. But yea its something thats bothering me. I kinda dont want the "Age of concent" thing but i know its there for a reason and all that other crap. Fuck it. Ok getting engaged at such a damn young age. I mean really. I know 14 and 13 year olds ENGAGED alread. WTF i havent been engaged once yet and im 20. I havent even thought of marring someone yet. I mean you might know the person very well you might have been with the person for a long time. But a 14 year old engaged. Fuck that. Stick to dating and figure out when your like 20 you guys still dont even have a life yet. ok so enough of my ranting for now. So post your thoughts. I know its a bit jumbled but im doing it from head to computer with out really thinging or organization. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: So cold- crossfade (Comment on this)
Monday, February 27th, 2006
1:32 pm	Job Well i have a job interview. Whoot oks gots to go. TTFN (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 16th, 2006
12:37 pm	Randomness > WARNING Sexy Ferret is radioactive. Wear protective clothing at all times. Username: From Go-Quiz.com (Comment on this)
12:36 pm	RADCON Oh yea. Radcon time. Setting up tonight and STARTS tomarrow. Hell yas. Im going to have a blast like i did last year. Just hope i get to meet some new people. And girls. LOL Oh yea i got most of my outfit done already just need to pick up the glow sticks and dye my hair. Also i need cash to buy new pants and a trench coat. That would make my look complete. :S So send the money to me. :) oh yea pants only 55 bucks but the coat will be like 100 to 300 bucks. Oh yea.:) (Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
1:02 pm	V day I dont know if i have posted about V-day yet. but oh well. Im going to be at the mall for like all day on V-day so if anyone in the tri ciites wants to join me come on down and we will find something to do. :) liek go bowling or something. :) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
3:50 pm	Valentines day Well Valentines day is comming up again. Stupidest holiday ever. Its where all of us single people feel worthless that we cant find that right one. And all the couples shove it in our faces. Not to mention they already have enough perks as it is. Why isnt there a singles day? I mean really. They get so much stuff comapred to us single people. It sucks. oh well Any one else need a date for valentines day? :-p (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
7:36 pm	Fears Measure Your Fears - Would You, Wouldn't You, You Did Pet a snake: I have but i was scared. I hate non hairy animals Spend a week in an empty room: If i was in the room it wouldnt be empty now would it Ride in a hot-air balloon: if i could curl up in a ball in the center sure Sky dive: Hell no Sing in front of a huge audience: Depending on how HUGE. Huge like xbox? scuba dive: sure sounds like a great idea Sit in the front seat of a roller coaster: sure never really been on one Deliver a baby: like be the dr. Or mother? Swim across the Amazon River: uumm if i had others with me that where slower then me sure Change careers: Dont have one right now so sure Disappear for a long period of time: I have like months at a time from most people Walk through the forest alone at night: Oh god yes its safer then the city at night Join a space mission: if they where to move people to another planet sure Tell everyone what you honestly think of them: most of the time i do Call off your wedding: If i dont like the person Walk naked through New York City for 10 minutes during rush hour: I dont like being naked Walk up to Mike Tyson and call him a girl: Sure I would. If he touches me its assult and i could sue his dumb ass. Disarm a bomb: That would be a blast. LOL no pun intended CLean the outside windows of a skyscraper: sure if it was on like the first or second floor Draw a mustache on the Mona Lisa with a permanent marker: hell ya. Go on tour with Elvis: if he played better music sure Go swimming during a thunder storm: I would love to but all the pools and things close when that happens. Them bastards Preform surgury on your best friend: If i was trained yes. Other wise NO. Take this survey | Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 28th, 2006
11:16 am	How to make me Thought this was funny. Got it from a friend. How to make a Sexy_Ferret Ingredients: 1 part success 1 part crazyiness 3 parts energy Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy! Username: Personality cocktail From Go-Quiz.com (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 21st, 2006
1:42 pm	Homesss Well im Graduating the 25th or 26th i can never remember but its the last thursday of this month. So there. Ill be comming home for good. I hope to see everyone. And ill miss everyone here. Ive got some new magic cards and they are pretty cool. New abilitys and all that other junk. Its cool.LOL But i might buy a laptop with wireless so i can get on anywhere i am. YAY and i found some cheap ones for like 700 bucks and that will be about as much as im getting as soon as i leave. then more later. Oh well. Ive got to goo. bye bye and love ya all. Oh and girls are pissing me off. LOL (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 29th, 2005
10:22 am	New years resolutions In the year 2006 I resolve to: Poke a badger with a spoon. Get your resolution here (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 27th, 2005
5:59 am	Movies Well I went to see the Cronicles of Narnia (Spelling. What a great movie. Saw previews for Pirates of the Carbian 2 (spelling) looks so freaking funny and aswome. Been bored at my uncles only been playing D2 since thats the main game on the computer. Hoping to go back to my friends and spend time with them before i leave again. Wishing i could get a job somewhere before i leave so i dont really have to go back and i could get most of the reo to work with. but if not its all good. What else to say? I miss all the people i havent seen at home. I also miss the people i like at job corps. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 24th, 2005
3:35 pm	Christmas Eve Well its christmas eve. Im with my uncle and two cousins that i havent seen in a long time. Jenni is from Cali and its been over 5 years since i have seen her. So im on their computer and have spent the last two days with them. Someone called my moms Cell phone from job corps some girl and my mom doesnt remember her name. Its driving me nuts i dont remember who all i gave my number to. And the ones i do remember that i gave my number to their numbers dont match the one my mom has. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 17th, 2005
6:23 pm	Winter Break Well Its winter break for me from Job corps. Im at my friends out right now waiting to make chars for some new D&D game. I missed all my friends here. Im searching for jobs i applyed at a lot in the mall. I need to look for more places to job search since stupid sites like monster and all that SUCK. But other then that im a little confused again. I met yet again this wonderful girl. We didnt talk much at job corps but as soon as we parted and saw each other online (yea i gave her my email and she game me hers.) We talked a lot and learned a lot about one another. Its really good. I dont know what to do. She seems to like me a lot. But she has a b/f and i dont know how things are going to go. She tells me he doesnt talk to her and all this stuff. but I dont know. I know i shouldnt be worried about this. But most people know my past and im parrionid about things like this and my heart is quick to like someone. Oh well. Love ya all. Talk to you later and sorry i havent been posting that much been busy. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 25th, 2005
3:17 pm	Irish name? Your Irish Name Is... Owen O'Carroll What's your Irish Name? (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 24th, 2005
11:14 am	Thanksgiving Well its thanksgiving. Im at a friends and celebrating it with him. I love his family. so nice. Since my Famialy doesnt really do anything for hollidays anymore im here to actualy enjoy them. Right now we are cleaning (well not me at this moment but i was earlier.) But yea anyone else's family not really do anything for the holidays anymore? Oh BTY HAPPY THANKSGIVING. Love ya all Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Aqua - Calling you (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 7th, 2005
8:03 pm	Pissed Well im getting pissed at this place. The people here are getting pissy at the slightest thing. Its affecting me also. I cant take it any more. Someone who says one thing to me makes me want to kick their ass wether male or female. Its like something in the water or food here where its turning one person against another. like the other day i snaped at a girl. Who i really really liked. and i was glad i did it for a while then i relized that i fucked up. What is with this place. I just want to be home and happy. I miss my friends and i miss gaming. I love you all and hope to see you all soon. (Comment on this)